Prayer Request

Family & Friends:

This Friday, exactly 1 month before my due date, I have a 6-hour National Exam to take down in Kissimmee. It is to pursue my license in Surveying and Mapping. Of the requirements needed for the license, I have the 4-year degree, the 4 years of experience and have passed 3 of the 4 exams, this exam being the last one to pass.

Only one minor problem: I’m not sure this is where God is leading me.

My prayer request is not that I pass this exam, but that His will be done. I’m desperately seeking clarity on my future occupation once kids are older and it’s difficult to not be able to recognize whether or not to pursue Surveying.

I’m no longer ashamed of not passing. My desire is to know what and where He will have me serving Him, bettering myself and my family. I’d appreciate any and all prayers you could muster on my behalf.

Sincerely,
~Kelle



This was an email I just sent out.

Sound desperate?

It should. Because I am.

I am craving an answer.



I just Googled, "What does the Bible say about asking for prayer" because I am tempted to feel very weak and dependent when asking others to pray for me. But one of the headings that the search returned was, "What does the Bible say about Unanswered Prayer." Well, maybe that IS the answer. It's just unanswered right now.

It goes on to say that there could be several possible reasons for there being no answer:

1. I didn't believe I could get what I asked for. ("Therefore I want the men everywhere to pray, lifting up holy hands without anger or disputing." 1 Timothy 2:8)
2. I asked for the wrong reasons. ("When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures." James 4:3)
3. God knows that what I've asked for is not what's best for me. (" ...Therefore, in order to keep me from becoming conceited, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me." 2 Corinthians 12:7-9)
4. I expect something I have no right to receive because I am not in the right relationship with the one I am asking. ("If God only gives redemption, forgiveness, wisdom and prudence to his children by adoption through Jesus Christ then some of the lesser good things may also be reserved for his adopted children." Ephesians 1:5-8)
   

Heavy stuff.



Bottom line is this:
"This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us—whatever we ask—we know that we have what we asked of him." 1 John 5:14-15



I don't know where I am. I'm not sure if I truly believed I could get an answer, or if I asked for the wrong reasons, or if waiting is what's best, or if I'm truly in the right relationship to even be so bold as to ask.

What I am sure of is "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you." Matthew 7:7

The answer I've so desperately been craving very well might be to . . . . . .

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For this exercise in writing has caused me to ... "Be still and know that I am God." Psalm 46:10